Change

Is anybody else afraid of Change?

For the past how ever many years, all my life has been about is change, change and a little bit more change. 

I used to be the youngest of the family, with an older sister, and older brother a mum and a dad. We used to go to school, come back home, do our homework, have dinner, watch tele and then go to bed.

That used to be everyday, and it was such a lovely routine. 

Since then, we have all moved our seperate ways. When I moved out, I went to the guys parents with him, and lived with him there. It was beautiful, no worries, everything done, and everything so different.  Then we moved to our first flat. We had no idea what we had, until it wasn't there and we had to fight for ourselves. A week after moving, we found out I was pregnant and then the change started for good. 

We moved into our house, we got ready for our son to be born. We planmed everything together. We spoke about everything. We worked everything out that needed to be worked out. 

Recently all I can think about is the baby growing up into a boy, having his life, and this is his childhood. I keep trying to forget this is our future changing, but it's the start of his childhood, the times that when he has a family that he'll be reminiscing. 

  

I used to be scared of change. It used to be the thing I would hate. The thing that I would try and do everything in my power to stop it. 

Not these days, I'm trying everything I possibly can to make this the best life I possibly can for Harry. 

Everyday something seems to go wrong, and it's an instinct to try and protect my baby son from getting hurt or affected with it. 

Is this a change that is there for ever now?! I think so. 

I used to be so scared, and now I seem to be doing it every day of my life. 

How times can change. it's amazing.