& Now We're Overdue....

Well, after thinking I was in early labour for what seems an eternity, and the countless trips up the local hospital...we are now 4 days overdue; waiting for our little master monster to arrive..
Everybody I know that has been there for me to ask questions and go to mum to be groups with, have all now popped & got their babies in their arms, already growing up....and here me and the man are, sitting on the sofa enjoying X Factor on a Saturday night, with the fire on, having hot chocolate & pizza, enjoying life....as like it is the last Saturday evening we will get like this for a while.. even though we were expecting our last Saturday to be the last...and so it goes on.
Every twinge, and niggle of pain I get, I used to be "oooooo Harry's on his way", but now, it's ouuchhh, please don't hurt mummy; unless you're coming out :)..
I seem relaxed now, as the last trip up hospital we got to have a look at the room we may get to be in, as it's a new ward & they have just opened it up...it's looking gorgeous and relaxing, and not like Margate one bit!!
The amount of people that keep asking "is he here yet?!" is really grating on my mind!. It would be okay I think if it was distant friends or people I didn't see everyday; but like my close family; who know full well they would receive the first text to be told if he was born keep asking me and commenting to me asking if he is here and to get me to hurry up...as if it is my fault and it's like I'm keeping him in for a bit longer than necessary!! 
I am enjoying being overdue in a way though, because everything seems to be changing really slowly right infront of my eyes.
So now, we are just trying to get the house ready for Master Harry whenever he wants to actually make an entrance in this world.:D
Was anybody else overdue? :) xxx

And we're still waiting...

well, we are still waiting for a baby. one that apparently doesn't want us to meet him just yet. one that doesn't want everybody to be all over him. one that doesn't want his mummy and daddy to have continuous sleepless nights just to be able to hear him breathe and listen to his cry. 
I just cannot wait for my life to change..only having 3 days left until I'm due...I know I will probably go overdue; but I don't care. As long as he is healthy when he appears, it's all worth it. I honestly do not know what to expect. Everybody says it's so different to what they expected, what they were told and they absolutely love it...it's tiring and it's hard..but that's all I've heard. Of course it's rewarding, having the little human being rely on them, but; I just cannot wait until we are a family. 
In the past 2 weeks, me & my other half have gotten so close together, it's absolutely beautiful. Some days we go back to how we were; and some days we are completely different, which I love; but then we're reminded of the past almost immediately and feels like we were dreaming. ... I cannot wait until our little Harry arrives, and I know we will change to how we want it to be, but people keep getting in the way...as I know once Harry gets here, we will both make that change!!!

I was just wondering, how did everyone's lives change once they had their little bundle of joy? Was it as perfect as most people put it out to be?!?!.. :) Would love to hear different views of what I have to expect in the next coming weeks...

Thank you for following, xxx

The Start Of A New Beginning??...

I haven't been on for a while, however I thought I'd update you in the changes of the pregnancy that's happened this week...
The early stages of labour....well...I had assumed, personally...it wouldn't be painful and it would last a max of 4 hours or so....oh how I was wrong....
Saturday 22nd at 7pm, I had my first ever proper contraction...I have suffered Braxton Hicks rather badly throughout the last 5/6 weeks of pregnancy; but this contraction completely shocked me ..since then I've had them very regularly, even getting down to 2 minutes apart on Sunday night, so we spent a few hours at Maternity, at 2am Monday, to be told it was "just early labour, go home have a bath, have paracetamol & have a sleep." So much easier said than done...So the waiting game began. Monday morning when I was up for the day; I had a contraction every 10 minutes...literally by the minute..Tuesday we went up Maternity again, to be told ... you're only 2cm dilated, keep doing what you're doing & you should have a baby very soon....Wednesday they're getting stronger and now every 7 minutes...however now, Thursday morning at 1am I am now feeling very sick, very tired, in a lot of pain & can't wait for the next midwife appointment to actually tell me what is happening & why my baby boy is playing us up so badly, and doesn't want to meet us just yet!
The amount of times I have googled this situation to see if it is "normal" makes me even more depressed when you read..."this happened to me & I was still 2 weeks overdue(Y)!!"..But, I have also read that everyone that seems to have had a long early labour, had a very quick active labour, and it only lasted a few hours...and wasn't in so much pain....fingers crossed;) ....
So, just a question, anyone else have a traumatic/long labour or birth that wants to share?? :) ... 
Hoping little Harry will be here in my arms, very very soon!!...keep posted!! xxx

Our Babies Nursery

Today, me, my mother-in-law (to be) & sister-in-law (to be) decided we would tidy the nursery ready for little monster's arrival; as everyone is doing guesses now to when I'm allowed to drop; and what weight he will be...time seems to be ticking very fast...and only having 1 week and 4 days left until I am due to drop is a very scary thought. 
We are hoping to get carpets throughout the house; before he arrives...& so I have been going for long drives to try and find the best quote and the quickest time of fitting them in for us, however this didn't stop us wanting to sort out the nursery..knowing it will all have to be moved when we have the carpet fitted; but we will cross that bridge when it comes to it!! 

I can't believe how much Harry already has!, he is such a spoilt little monster it's amazing how many people are being so generous to us!
















I still can't get over the fact that in this multi-coloured unit, it is full of just his shoes!! (more than his mummy & daddy put together!)




I hope you enjoy reading my blog when he is here as well as now, all the updates of getting ready for him!!

My 'Surprise' Baby Shower...

Yesterday; my Mum & Sister arranged and organised a baby shower for me. It was a surprise, however I did know nearly everything about it, by the time it got to the day! I chose most people who to invite; and delivered the majority of the invitations. They did do great job at arranging all the fun games, all the food, and all the entertainment though. I had such a lovely time, and I got so many presents for Harry. I can't believe how spoilt he got, even though most of the people there had already bought him something, they decided they ought to spoil him a little bit more!!. 
I have now got to sort out his nursery; and find a place for everything he owns already. My dad told me the other day; he has more than what me, my brother & my sister had when we were born. He is such a spoilt little boy, it's so nice to see that everybody loves him & he isn't even here yet. 

When people used to ask me about baby showers; I didn't use to be that keen, and say it's just an American way to get presents. When I found out my mum & sister were arranging one for me & the other half, I was actually excited to see who would come (as we have a few family "differences") and to see who wanted to be part of little Harry's life. My mind wasn't really about the presents; until yesterday and they were all layed around my dad's lounge...and all I wanted to do was open them and try everything on Harry; however...he is still cooking & hasn't made an arrival just yet...which is lucky for us, as we still have a few bits to do to make the house perfect for him, before he makes an arrival. 

We played all the games; like, name the baby..pin the dummy on the baby, we had a plastic baby in each one of our ice cubes...to see whose "waters broke" first..(i won).:D:D...we had a baby word search, and a lot more games!. It was such a good afternoon, so well organised & was lovely for everyone just to get along for a few hours....Now all we have to do is tidy up the nursery & start the waiting game....

Planning for Christmas.

We have 14 whole weeks until Christmas is here...this is the most amazing time of year, in my eyes. 
All the gorgeous lights; the cold dark evenings where you just want to snuggle up on the sofa and watch films all day long, you can put warm jeans or joggers on, with a pair of Uggs, wrap up so warm in a huge hug warming scarf & get the red rosy cheeks that you just have to smile about.

Having a newborn baby in the winter gives me the excuse of not having to leave the house as much as I would have to normally, so I am very happy that Harry will be there keeping me company in the cold days, as I know the other half will be working every hour possible, to be able to get the family a lovely wageslip :).

Well, if you haven't guessed already, in the next 14 weeks, we have a new baby arrival & also a wedding to plan for, as well as buying for all the family for Christmas, and this being our first Christmas of living together too; it seems that we have got a lot to do!!
The majority is all set up for the arrival of the little monster; we just need him now. 

However, the wedding; it seems all we have set now is the Venue, the photographer, the florist, the invitations & the cake....we still have the dress, the suits, the rings, the shoes, the hair...but I'm hoping as soon as little one makes an arrival it will all be go go go for the wedding plans & it'll be the most amazingly perfect day ever, and it'll all be worth the 14 months we've been planning it for!!

So, today, I ordered my first order on the internet for Christmas..with wrapping paper included, toys for Harry & also some birthday presents that should be here before Christmas. As I have no idea when to expect this delivery, I am preparing for them all to be Christmas presents. I love receiving parcels & can't wait to open them all up and find what they all look like. 

Stay tuned for more posts in the lead up to the wedding & Christmas :) x x 

2 weeks left...

So, our countdown is certainly getting more exciting every day!!.
Now we only have 2 weeks & 5 days until our little monster's due date is here!! Everyday there is something more interesting to read be it in magazines or websites, in which I probably read when I had just become pregnant & felt like it was ages away and it wasn't relevant to me; the fact that it which now it is, is a bit shocking.
Everyday is also getting a little bit more of a mission, whether it's walking down to the shops, if it's going up the stairs, or even just getting off the sofa seems to be a 5 minute job these days. Cleaning seems to have taken a toll in my mind..Never have I enjoyed cleaning, I used to leave it as long as I possibly could...until it needed doing. But not a day goes by these days that I get the bleach out, or get the air freshener out, or hoover about 4 times a day (without a proper working hoover may I add)!!
It is so relieving to say that I only have 2 weeks and a few days left, but I have also started counting backwards...and seem to have started again. I have been thinking we have 4 weeks left, which in total fact the past couple of weeks have shot by, but saying we have 4 weeks left wont give me the shock if he does go overdue, & will be even more exciting to say that he is here sooner than expected.
Everybody I know is sure he will be a September baby, & being due on 2nd October only gives him 2 days to be early...however, I am sure he will be my little October beaut of a baby and come on the 8th October.
It is so scary to think that we will have a complete new life in the house in 4 weeks time!. If he is late, or early, or even miraculously on time; he will be our baby boy...in the world...ready to meet every body that is so excited to see him.
Who will he look like? What will his cry sound like? Will he be a mummy or a daddy's boy? ...The amount of questions that go through my mind everyday....I can't wait for the next month to hurry up & we can have all the answers & start our future as a perfect family together.
I keep watching programs like One Born Every Minute; when before I was pregnant, they really put me off birth (obviously not enough..), but now, I get so excited and whenever little Mr in the belly hears a baby cry, I get a reassuring kick in the ribs just to let me know "I'm still in here & I'm not coming out yet mummy!!".

My Little Boy.

you are my sunshine,
my little one,
i barely know you,
but already you stole my heart

you are so tiny 
i can hardly wait,
to hold you tight
in a sweet embrace.

nine months of waiting 
to see your face
wondering of how you'll look
is what i do all day.

i feel you swimming 
inside my womb
and smile happily
when i feel you move

the days seem to pass by so slowly
just waiting for your arrival
but ill see you soon, that's for sure
on that special day
when i first see your cute little face.

The Things I've Learnt In The Past Year.

Starting this blog has given me so many chances to relieve what has been going through my mind...but every time I have written something, it doesn't sound right!...I'm sure I will soon get the hang of this! 
I really enjoy writing lists; so I thought I'd do a list of 3 things I have learnt in the past year of my life and what has totally made my life change. 

1. You Realise Who Your True Friends Are At The Hardest Times.
At only 18 & being proposed to, I was young...but saying Yes was the best decision in the world. Not only was he my boyfriend, he was my best friend & my soul mate, I loved spending time with him every second I possibly could. We loved spending days together, just us two. He made me smile when I was crying, & we had our own private jokes & laughs. I didn't think we needed anybody else, if I had him, then no-one else mattered...Finding out I was pregnant at 19 was a totally new chapter of our lives. It was a week after my 19th birthday, we had arranged to move into a one bed flat together, and it seemed that everyone was behind our decision of getting married on the special date at the end of the year, 12/12/12. As soon as we told people we were pregnant; the majority of the so called friends I grew up with from school decided they were going to be "kind" and tell us the "truth" and how they felt about our "situation"...Which wasn't the happiest experience ever. Which was then, when I felt like I had lost everybody and forgotten about all the laughs Mitch and I used to have, forgotten about not needing any body else, forgotten what it was like with just us two...it took a couple of months to realise that I was growing a real human being in my tummy..this human being, being our little baby, this baby needing it's mummy & daddy being happy and giving it the best life we possibly could. Moving out we needed people around us, I felt so lonely when Mitch was at work, but then I had nobody, because I was growing up ... on my own so it seemed. It has taken me about 5 months to realise that I don't care about those particular people that left me at my worst times. They don't deserve to be in our lives, especially our babies life of growing up. It was a very tough start to the year; but every week it is definitely getting better knowing that the end of the year is coming very quickly, we have got the friends we need & the ones that we know that will be there for us 3 at all the times we need, good and bad and soon we will be meeting our new baby & be welcoming our first family Christmas as Husband & Wife!!

2. Nobody Tells You What To Expect When Pregnant.
When people were pregnant, I used to be so jealous. They always looked glowing, they always looked so well, they were always happy & they were always so excited! When I got pregnant, I couldn't wait for it all to begin...I'm now 37 weeks pregnant, and still waiting for all this to happen!!. I never got that "glow", never looked well, and still don't know how people enjoy being pregnant!. We won't be having a sibling for our little baby in a hurry, that one is set in stone!. I suffered from morning sickness from 8 weeks - 13 weeks, then I lacked in energy badly, we then moved house and I totally over did it, trying to decorate the house in record time...warning you now, don't try and do something in every room! Take it room by room & it might get done quicker!! I then started suffering from braxton hicks, and now it's swollen hands & feet, bad back, headaches & low iron!! It hasn't been plain sailing..but it's sinking in now; that I am growing an actual human being in my tummy. It has only started occurring to me that we are going to be parents in 3 weeks or less (hopefully not overdue). Our little monster has decided it wants to kick me, and show his foot in print on the top of my bump; which I'm not too sure if I enjoy or not..but the satisfactory of seeing this movement is amazing to know he is happily jiggling away and making his mummy's days harder and harder to get around, to finish decorating the house and to be enjoying going out. If I'm honest, I haven't enjoyed being pregnant, no...but I wouldn't have it any other way! I have absolutely loved the way people are so interested in somebody else that we have made, and it makes so much conversation these days. I just can't wait for these 3 very long weeks to go past & we get to meet our little bundle of joy, to see who he looks like more, and to see what personality he will have and just for our first cuddles. We are so ready to meet him now.

3, Your Dreams Seem To Stop Being So "Out Of This World".
This time last year I never thought I'd be getting ready to be having a baby and becoming a wife. I thought I would still be a girlfriend, always out, going out getting drunk (which I never actually did before I was pregnant anyway..), probably still living at home. I used to dream that I would meet someone that we would go walking down beaches late at night in the winter, we would cuddle up together and watch films all night long. I'd go on holidays & enjoy all the Christmas' and New Years & not have to worry about being responsible for anybody....but now, it's all changed. In under a year, I have that soul mate right next to me, every step of my way; and I also have a little human that will soon be relying on us both as parents to teach him everything he needs to know in life!! It's such a scary time; but it's so amazing; cannot wait for our future to begin!!

Stay tuned for more posts about My Son, My Story :)  x x x 

The Start Of My Story.

Hello. 

A spur of the moment thought about 3 months ago was that I wanted to start writing a blog about the story of my life. I enjoy reading a few of my friends blogs, and i enjoy the fact that if people don't enjoy it; you don't have to read it...rather than boring everybody on random facebook status updates for people that really don't care what's going on in my life. So a family friend, that has a blog and that I really enjoy reading everyday, has told me how to set my own one up... so here goes :)...

So, it all started on February 22nd 2012. There were two thick red lines on this stick right in front of me...shaking like anything; I didn't know what to think! The fiance's sister tried to help with her encouragement by giving me a cuddle; but at 6.30am I hadn't quite woken up just yet; let alone had time to think about the fact...what if this is a positive?!. 
So much has happened since that date; and looking back seems like such a long time ago; but it has gone so quick...never did I think it would. We moved out of his parents, into a 1 bedroom flat; 4 flights up without a lift...it was a lovely spacious flat; and ideal for the first months of living together, everyday the stairs got tougher & tougher....
I am now 3 weeks away from my due date; after finding out that we're having a baby boy...named Harry Lenny Avery. We have moved into a 3 bedroom house, and life is throwing everything it possibly can at us, making us stronger in every way possible.

I absolutely love writing my own little stories; and we have notebooks everywhere around the house full of random lists & random memories that I never want to forget; so having a blog I believe that when Harry gets older we can log into here and read all of the memories we have shared of him growing up and all the adventures of him making us parents.

Well, hopefully we will welcome you back to the next blog,
Thank you for reading. 
Fee, Mitch & Bump Harry xx