The Things I've Learnt In The Past Year.

Starting this blog has given me so many chances to relieve what has been going through my mind...but every time I have written something, it doesn't sound right!...I'm sure I will soon get the hang of this! 
I really enjoy writing lists; so I thought I'd do a list of 3 things I have learnt in the past year of my life and what has totally made my life change. 

1. You Realise Who Your True Friends Are At The Hardest Times.
At only 18 & being proposed to, I was young...but saying Yes was the best decision in the world. Not only was he my boyfriend, he was my best friend & my soul mate, I loved spending time with him every second I possibly could. We loved spending days together, just us two. He made me smile when I was crying, & we had our own private jokes & laughs. I didn't think we needed anybody else, if I had him, then no-one else mattered...Finding out I was pregnant at 19 was a totally new chapter of our lives. It was a week after my 19th birthday, we had arranged to move into a one bed flat together, and it seemed that everyone was behind our decision of getting married on the special date at the end of the year, 12/12/12. As soon as we told people we were pregnant; the majority of the so called friends I grew up with from school decided they were going to be "kind" and tell us the "truth" and how they felt about our "situation"...Which wasn't the happiest experience ever. Which was then, when I felt like I had lost everybody and forgotten about all the laughs Mitch and I used to have, forgotten about not needing any body else, forgotten what it was like with just us two...it took a couple of months to realise that I was growing a real human being in my tummy..this human being, being our little baby, this baby needing it's mummy & daddy being happy and giving it the best life we possibly could. Moving out we needed people around us, I felt so lonely when Mitch was at work, but then I had nobody, because I was growing up ... on my own so it seemed. It has taken me about 5 months to realise that I don't care about those particular people that left me at my worst times. They don't deserve to be in our lives, especially our babies life of growing up. It was a very tough start to the year; but every week it is definitely getting better knowing that the end of the year is coming very quickly, we have got the friends we need & the ones that we know that will be there for us 3 at all the times we need, good and bad and soon we will be meeting our new baby & be welcoming our first family Christmas as Husband & Wife!!

2. Nobody Tells You What To Expect When Pregnant.
When people were pregnant, I used to be so jealous. They always looked glowing, they always looked so well, they were always happy & they were always so excited! When I got pregnant, I couldn't wait for it all to begin...I'm now 37 weeks pregnant, and still waiting for all this to happen!!. I never got that "glow", never looked well, and still don't know how people enjoy being pregnant!. We won't be having a sibling for our little baby in a hurry, that one is set in stone!. I suffered from morning sickness from 8 weeks - 13 weeks, then I lacked in energy badly, we then moved house and I totally over did it, trying to decorate the house in record time...warning you now, don't try and do something in every room! Take it room by room & it might get done quicker!! I then started suffering from braxton hicks, and now it's swollen hands & feet, bad back, headaches & low iron!! It hasn't been plain sailing..but it's sinking in now; that I am growing an actual human being in my tummy. It has only started occurring to me that we are going to be parents in 3 weeks or less (hopefully not overdue). Our little monster has decided it wants to kick me, and show his foot in print on the top of my bump; which I'm not too sure if I enjoy or not..but the satisfactory of seeing this movement is amazing to know he is happily jiggling away and making his mummy's days harder and harder to get around, to finish decorating the house and to be enjoying going out. If I'm honest, I haven't enjoyed being pregnant, no...but I wouldn't have it any other way! I have absolutely loved the way people are so interested in somebody else that we have made, and it makes so much conversation these days. I just can't wait for these 3 very long weeks to go past & we get to meet our little bundle of joy, to see who he looks like more, and to see what personality he will have and just for our first cuddles. We are so ready to meet him now.

3, Your Dreams Seem To Stop Being So "Out Of This World".
This time last year I never thought I'd be getting ready to be having a baby and becoming a wife. I thought I would still be a girlfriend, always out, going out getting drunk (which I never actually did before I was pregnant anyway..), probably still living at home. I used to dream that I would meet someone that we would go walking down beaches late at night in the winter, we would cuddle up together and watch films all night long. I'd go on holidays & enjoy all the Christmas' and New Years & not have to worry about being responsible for anybody....but now, it's all changed. In under a year, I have that soul mate right next to me, every step of my way; and I also have a little human that will soon be relying on us both as parents to teach him everything he needs to know in life!! It's such a scary time; but it's so amazing; cannot wait for our future to begin!!

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